She - Just from the pronoun you know how I lean Fourteen, fifteen Every girl was the girl of my dreams Her name was Louise Brown hair, brown eyes, Kawaii thigh-highs She was having two guys on the sly Like a pretty planet with Two moons in the sky Let me watch the Earth-rise From my satellite Were you his or were you mine? Didn't give a shit at the time I was so fucking shy You had to tell me to take off my tie Blazer, razor-sharpened spit What the fuck? she's on my lips You were a rocket-ship ride Gravity of our descent made me cry But no good-byes in my messages Just cut each other off like permission slips And I wonder if you ever really missed The scruffy blond boy that you taught how to kiss Down for your touch Down for your touch Down for your touch But I want too much Light my fuse and I'll blow up I'll blow up, watch me blow up Annabel, in my head you were famous Golden-age silent actress on the screen of my mind kind of famous But I couldn't say this 'cause I'd be betraying the love that I made with my real date Fucking you was a make-believe escape Fantasy I couldn't shake Well, it's too late to sit in cafés And let out my repressed feelings Over a steaming cup of Darjeeling Look at the ceiling and wish we could strip in the evening Take a trip to a land where morality's stripped of all meaning 'cause lust is a mist, a maze Hallucinogenic haze Clouding the brain through bittersweet days Annabel, Annabel, Annabel you'd be amazed 'Cause I'm down for your touch Down for your touch Down for your touch But I want too much Light my fuse and I'll blow up I'll blow up, watch me blow up Ivy in the sacred grove where winter-bitten love is grown I was so long on my own I never thought I'd call another body home But a girl with a pixie cut and her long-sleeved shirt buttoned up She stole the show Couldn't have known Valentine, we perfectly rhyme Slip a note under your door and run away like I just committed a crime That was our kind of vibe If you hand-write, it's not easy to lie It was too easy to lie together When our fingers found the spaces in between each other's I held the whole world in my hands The whole world I could understand King and queen of our own sweet land Bask in the sun of my bedside lamp Her back to me, spooning, Makes me go loony Mad as the moon and I'm in love truly Didn't always go smoothly I wasn't a romantic lead from a movie There were times you wished I would speak And times you wished you could mute me I could never compute you Peer in your head and it's all translucent Funny how the person you know the best Can still be a stranger stranded in bed Her back to me, silent, Remote like an island, Dark as the moon And it's awfully quiet

I was always a loner It's not just corona Then I met Shona (hey) Now I want to moan her name Fringe is the colour of copper Like change - redder than rage Auburn like autumn When leaves change, They take on her shade What did she make of my braids? Probably thought I was gay I don't know - I am just figuring out how I look, okay? If people don't like it Then that is the price of Individuality that I am willing to pay I was always a loner It's not just corona Then I met Shona (hey) Now I want to moan her name Scarlet jacket and blue jeans Magnet attract and seduce me Green is the colour of envy Someone else captured your attention Boy that you came in the entrance with (Who?) The one that you get kinda friendly with (Oh) Pretend that I'm not interested (I am) Tonight who are you gonna spend it with? (Not me) Not me Fall in love For a day Someone to Dream about On a Great Western train On a Great Western train It's nice to know my heart hasn't failed It's nice to know my heart hasn't failed

Unemployed, voluntary work I live slowly, down to earth Calm is the currency I earn What job is my time worth? Tea for two, milk, no sugar, I see That's how you stay thin and wiry Like a pylon, tights like nylon A bony shoulder to cry on It's quiet - you're a shy one And I don't like staying silent You're a new face, I'm excited Tell me about yourself, surprise me You can tell I'm not from around here Far from home in the home counties Couple words in and you know by my accent I flew the nest and I crash-landed Everyone's assuming That I came here to be a student Yeah, I came here to be a student of Life - everyone's my tutor Enough about me What about you? You talk like me Active politically So I chat shit about my old MP You interrupt: "He's my MP!" What? The same MP? One chance in 650? Okay, this is freaky Where'd you grow up? Go to school? Don't tell me, it's my old school Three years above me, that's all Coincidence, impossible Your face and hair, I don't recall From glancing across the assembly hall Memories plentiful Convo suspenseful I'm giggling, so surreal Giddy, wild-eyed, I'm just thrilled Like a cheesy rom-com film But I have no script and blanks to fill You lived a couple of streets away Walking distance for a decade Years and the length of the country passed us by so we could meet today Haven't the faintest what to say Crack a smile and wave Two needles finally finding each other in the hay

Don't wanna know how many boys you slept with That number is a weapon Straight through my chest and Bang bang I'm a jealous ex, y, z 3D lines in my face etched By the absence of your grace Hug the covers tight, there's still empty space Six months lacking your embrace Six months knowing I'm to blame What a waste, what a waste, what a waste I cried and wrote you a long letter Not known at this address, return to sender I got it back and I could send it again But I know better, I know better I don't know anyone better than you at affection How can I choose from an empty selection? Trick question Don't picture me as a victim I'm the rotting carcass of a pigeon Flattened by a Citroen Look in its eyes and feel pity But at least it won't be shitting on Anyone, anymore My good friends scrape me up off the floor 'cause my good friends get me Worse than death is if you forget me Am I a bad memory? Long ago, like a lost century Closed museum doors, no entry I'd fall right back in if you let me So don't let me, don't let me Make someone else feel electric and you're so wet That's how sparks fly On a dark night I can sense it Are you contented?

Maybe the way we got back together was too rapid Talk into the night but we sleep on a different mattress Softly holding you between my fingers like you're fabric Maybe I got out of the habit Long distance feels like a marathon (you said) Picture of me faded in your head (you said) Want to be free as a bird Free of my burdens of lead With someone exciting instead Who will dance on the ground that I fear to tread Hurt so much But I know what she meant Maybe virtual affection's too hard to imagine When you're disconnected it's like who turned off the magic? Silent like an attic Screaming like the traffic Maybe it's the rain but I'm feeling kind of tragic Is that all? End the call You're free to go, I'm still enthralled to the void left by your shadow growing on my wall Like mould it crawls and climbs Imperceptibly over time Took me a few months to cry And tears take years to dry Permanent Not just giving you up for Lent Not just skipping a month of rent Have to move out of each other's heads Changing address Still stay chained to my desk Till I pay my student debt You were worth it, but I'll never forget I was always a guest Withdraw I sit and draw Breath Into my chest, drawers, dress I wanna cruise like a whore Date and then fuck and then fucking ignore Isn't that the how the cool kids get it all? Liberated individuals Connect to the grid just to pull Out the plug 'cause I'm invisible Pull out the plug 'cause I'm invisible Pull out the plug 'cause I'm invisible Pull out the plug 'cause I'm invisible I'm invisible